Feeling a little 'kick' is normal, and what you logically would expect, because as you lift the lever you are working against boiler pressure with the piston's upper seal, and when that seal passes the inlet hole of the cylinder you will feel a 'kick' where you are no longer working against that pressure.
I'm not clear about your method:
Kenneth wrote: How much do i let it drip? Maybe an ounce. Then i pull the lever down. Pressure and time to pull varies depending on grind, tamp, etc. very little crema and very little espresso for that matter, about .2-.5 oz.
Are you saying that you let full ounce drip with the lever up, then pull for an additional .2 to .5 oz? If so, then you certainly have me stumped. What are you using for a grinder?
Do you get a lot of resistance to your pull? With a fine grind you should be needing 30lbs or more of force on that lever and it should take 30 seconds or more to pull it all the way down. If you don't have that, then perhaps you have a problem with the lower piston seal. (I'm guessing here, I have no real experience with bad lower seals.)
When you flush the machine with an empty basket do you get reasonable flow? My millennium machine dribbles water way slower than my pre-millennium, but I do get around a couple ounces of flush water if I hold the lever up for 10 seconds. When I pull a double basket shot I get between 16g and 25g of espresso in a single pull, after holding the lever at the top for 10-15 seconds. That's 1 - 1.5 fl oz depending on crema. (with no crema, 16g would be slightly over .5 fluid oz.)
P.S.
I assume that your 2003 model is a millennium machine, with the 51mm rather than 49mm basket.